how many times i enjoy my time v you?
how many times i relieved when having a talk?
how many times my heart overcame life troubles and sorrow when i thought of you?
it just...too many
I had many sad events and losses in my life,just like anybody,but out of them all,this felt really bad,I guess it is the worst ever till moment at least..

as we know
life is but a journey !
whether i accept this or not,it is reality
any journey can end up in a massive failure or a great success,it all depends on how one choose the path at each intersection cross..

for the time being i feel i have been trapped in a way difficult intersection,though this entrapment feel different and sadden than ever! feels like i couldn't go on v my journey anymore,many wrong decisions i have taken along the time and seems it all appeared before me at this moment..

i really want go into a long journey v a person i trully respect who also share this feeling,but i know this is just a dream or thought that cross my mind each time i go to sleep..

i cant blame you who just see my feeling as a drama and get depressed by it,i'm deeply apologize,i don't speak to anyone of my deep emotional thought so i try to just express it in a place where i guess no one will find it out..

when can i become like other people and just figure out that people around me are just passengers sitting beside me in this train of life,you don't care about me as much i do for you,but i can't stop thinking and caring about you and you..are the only one who come close to my heart ever !

i'm not sure if you are going to read this,but to be honest v you : you were the closest to my heart ever !
you have my forgive for everything,i think this is for you too..

though i wish thing go by my way,but life just not a good dream..i hope that things,wont happen again..

i miss you badly...
i need you by my side...
i cant stop thinking about you...
i cant stop ask myself:
jesus~what i have done !
i really really really cant lost you...
i was very regret on my deed !

can you forgive me???

almost 16 years old

i still so 'xiao qi'

im not angry with you

just feel dissapointed

it was not your fault at all

it was all my fault

dun blame urself

last night
not me duwan to reply you
yet,
is me too shame to reply you
i make you like that
i really very shame to face you
i was so so so sorry to you

dun say sorry to me anymore
because you is the one who will receive my sorry
dun call me forgive you
because i'm the one that need you to forgive

i wan to ask.........

                      .........can you forgive me???

2day when bkb,

i just like a clown standing in the middle of the court

thinking about you

my heart went missing

just because of you

without you

i just like a body without the soul

i just can ask myself

what should i do without you?

My life become colourful by you

my life also went missing by you

i cant deny that you have already fill my heart

you are my everything

you are my centre of life

this fact will never changed eventhough you changed

I'm very sure of it...

Letting u go
making me feel so cold
I have been trying to make bliv it doesnt hurt
but tat makes it worse
i know maybe i will laugh about it someday
but not 2day

I'm tangled up inside
my tongue is tied
nn my body feel so weak
2moro still a mystery for me

it might be wonderful
it might be magical
it might be everything i have waited for
A miracle
the future is all I realy need

Love

is the greatest power in the world

eventhough life is short

but my love to you

is the present tat will last forever

my medicine!!!!!
look like smarties =]